Boy I certainly wouldn't want to return to those few nasty weeks.
There was this particular event which took place over several weeks which involved a guy, classmates and backstabbers. I was in an unfamiliar surrounding, and I needed a buddy, or anyone I could hang out with.
Then came along this girl, whom I knew very vaguely from an event we once were involved in.
I was incredibly grateful for having her as a friend, and we'd tell each other stories, discuss about anything that came into mind and laugh at random stuff.
I was happy. Plain and simple.
Then came this dude. Long story short, I had a crush on him. And of course, like every other guy I liked, he didn't feel the same way. Huge blow to my self esteem (haha!)
For a while I kept it to myself. Then while hanging out with the girl one day and her friend, I figured if I told them my problem they could lend a hand. So I opened up to them and let out every single detail, the things I did to get his attention, the jealousy that rose inside when he was paying more attention to other girls and the one time I cried, all because I heard rumours about a potential gf (go ahead, laugh)
So she gave me tips on how to get that guy. Be more confident, speak to him like how I speak to other guys and just be cool. Oh, and change the way I dressed =.="
Well I took some of the advice but things weren't changing.
It wasn't until a Monday morning when I was heading home when a classmate came up to me. He was silent for a while, then he dropped the bomb:
"You like that guy is it?"
?!!!
I was super sure I didn't let my guard off in class. I didn't think it was obvious because I'd only spoke to him about homework about once or twice, and the rest of the time I was with other friends. I didn't secretly peek at him, or sit next to him or anything strange (that would have raised some questions).
So the obvious next question was, "who said lah?"
But he was adamant about the guy, so I lied (in an effort to close the subject). And at the same time I thought I knew the answer already, who else could have announced it to the entire class if it wasn't for that girl?
Backstabber backstabber *^%$^%^^#@@! Still, I kept my mouth shut.
Couple of days later I ran into the girl's friend (from a different school, different clique and my gut told me she's a very nice person. We're still friends today). We went for tea together, and in the middle of a conversation she said, "I hope you've realized by now she likes that guy too".
.... Backstabber backstabber backstabber *&^%#!#^(%%^!
So over the next few weeks I could totally make out how the backstabber was acting around in class, it was so obvious I just didn't put two and two together. They were in the same group, they hung out together and God knows what else she has been saying about me.
Several times I planned to confront her, but then I realize it was no good. She was too "powerful" with her gang members around her and I was afraid of her. No point in defending myself cuz they could have told everyone about the dumb stuff I did to get that guy to like me. I have already lost too much face, so no point in losing more. Should focus on how to win my face back lol.
Well, that was years ago. I have already forgiven her but I don't want to see her again. Honestly, I am still afraid of her and the "power" she has to convince people about the losers around (me, for instance).
The last time I saw her was at McDonalds at the front counter. I was super paranoid about what she'd do with my food so I went to another McDonalds.
