Muse - August 31, 2016

Normally I try not to take trivial matters seriously, but when you add a stressful, demanding job in the equation you WILL get stung by it. No matter how much you try to stay mentally and positively strong.

*cue the waterworks*

But that's okay, because crying is not a weakness. It lets out all the frustration and misery so you can start afresh.

So at the end of the day, you do your job well because you signed up for it and all the credits belong to you alone. Never mind if your colleagues do not recognize your effort but knowing that you gave your hundred percent in it is all that matters. Know that you can proudly say that you have utilized every single tool given to you and do one hell of a job.

Dear Economics

You can go straight to hell when the semester ends.

Melaka trip rant

This past Monday, I drove down to Melaka for a much needed break, thinking I could drown myself in food at all the famous cafes and stalls in town. I haven't been there since I was about 10 during a family trip and it turned out pretty okay. So instead of vacationing in Port Dickson again, it was decided Melaka was a decent option.

I stayed in Hotel Mimosa, the same one I stayed when I was a kid. I still recognize it - it was nestled between shophouses and nearby Jonker Street and the Capitol Satay Celup store. Room was okay, small but tidy enough for my liking.

I reached on a Monday afternoon, and for dinner, I'd walk to Jonker Street and find whatever food I can find there. Except it was closed. Go figure. So I walked around aimlessly with Waze as my guide - and somehow, I arrived at the Satay Celup store at Lorong Bukit Cina. The long queue didn't bother me, I was just contented I stumbled upon a famous place to eat. Even had time to drop by Big Bowl Ice store for dessert - just a few shops down the road.

Breakfast at the hotel on Tuesday morning, well, put it this way, it is a small hotel after all so I didn't expect breakfast like the one at Cyberview Lodge. Anyways, I was stoked to head out to Jonker Street for some goodies. I had the cendol at Jonker 88. I liked it and for the price, I liked it even more =)

Not knowing where else to go, I wandered around the street, then I started to get antsy, so I drove to Mahkota Parade. The highlight of my day was getting my Vincci heels size 4 (Mid Valley only had size 5 and above) and a pretty bracelet. 

Ohh, and I had Nando's for dinner.

Yes, the Nando's chicken chain store. There is one 15 minutes away from my apartment.

I couldn't wait to leave. I could only heave a sigh of relief after I checked out on Wednesday morning. But before I left the town, I thought I'd try the Nedeje mille crepes nearby Mahkota Parade. I like cakes, so why not.

Except it was closed. The company had a teambuilding on the same day.

-_-"

Wanna know where I had Nedeje mille crepes then? Petaling Jaya's Three Two Square.

Ya.

For the car

Good thing the bonus is here, and that means $1800 goes to repairing my car.

I crashed into this guy's car on May 1 because he decided it was okay for him to jump the red light. Long story short, he said it was my fault because I jumped the red light, and he rounded up some blur mamak stall-goers who also claimed it was me who jumped the red light. Wtf.

I damn panic already because dad didn't answer the phone at first, so I called mom. Then I called my landlord for support because I was ganged up at the mamak stall with everyone pointing fingers at me. Totally wtf when it isn't me at fault. And it was raining hippos and dinosaurs and the supervisor in charge of that day wasn't picking up the phone. Yep, it was work day on May 1.

That happened at 6.20pm. After reporting at the cop station in Puchong, they send me downtown to the main traffic police headquarters nearby Petaling Street and I told the same story to the inspector again and then he said, ok lah tomorrow you come back with the guy and see what we can do.

Another wtf. It was already 11pm and was planning to go to work after finishing all these crap (I was due to cover for a colleague). Petaling Street isn't exactly next door to my house either. And I felt I was gonna be ganged up by the cop and guy the next morning.

It was 1am by the time I dragged my ass home and duh, couldn't sleep. So I spent the entire time cocking up proofs to defend myself in case I needed too. The next morning, it was over within 20 minutes. Cop said to repair the car ourselves since no one is playing scapegoat admitting they're at fault. Relief.

So case closed. Now gotta take extra precaution on the road.

So far I've only spent the bonus on an outfit and a meal at Sakae Sushi. (Last year was spent at Chili's). Good thing I'm not a shopaholic.

*No pics of the car. Don't wanna be reminded of it*

I should stop being nice to people

Reason #1-Most people won't feel grateful, they're just happy this sucka gave into their needs.
Reason #2-Doing good stuff doesn't mean you get good karma in return. More like bad karma.
Reason #3-Most people won't even remember you did something for them. In fact they'll come back to you asking for more because this sucka is just too nice and polite to yell back and say no.

Btw, this sucka refers to me.

Seriously, I've just about had it with this neighborhood. I moved into this new place in April, where I finally got my own bathroom and a parking space I *thought* was mine. Heck, I moved in first! Umm, no. Landlord says first come, first serve. Okayyy.

Prob #1-Kancil decides he gets to park inside. So fine. I'll park outside. I work in shifts anyway so if I have to leave for work at 6am I won't be worried his car is obstructing mine and vice versa.
Prob #2-MyVi and Viva were the last to move in, and they get to park inside. So now I'll have to fight for a parking spot outside under the tree with Kancil. Bloody hell, outside also need to fight >.<

Which brought 3 more consequences to my poor lil car. First, the wheels get peed on every now and then by a neighbor dog who thinks he's so close to me. Then one of my tyre's air pressure cap (what is the correct term for that? I don't have time to check now) gets stolen. And just last month there were 2 scratches on my car! Bloody hell what have I done to deserve all this poop?

But thank God the landlord decided to cement up the lawn so an additional car can be parked inside. So far so good. My car's getting some shade. Finally. Until this morning.

Prob #3-Honda bike has his friends over occasionally, and they picked this morning to park their Wira right in front of the gate so I can't park inside. So fine, I'll park outside.
Prob #4-As I was inching into my usual spot under the tree, this black Viva belonging to the auntie next door comes running to me saying I'm parking in her spot. Bloody hell it's still within my house's territory how the hell it became your spot?

Unfortunately I could still find the politeness in me amidst of all the poop that was going on so I parked somewhere else and had to resist the temptation of waking up the Wira guys who were sound asleep in the living room. And I actually apologized to the auntie. Who on this planet would actually apologize when they're not at fault? If I had a gun with me I'd already blew my brains out for being the most pathetic sucka on Earth. And, oh the guys didn't even bother to apologize as I was leaving for work this evening. Bloody, bloody humans.

And bloody, bloody me who can't find a way to lash out at people.

Seriously, one more poop happens I swear I'll burn down this entire neighborhood.

Unlucky

What is it with some people who do mistakes but don't get caught? But when I made an accidental mistake the supervisor comes running to my channel, pointing at the outgoing screen and I have to suck in my ego and apologize.

Gotta find my work mojo again.

Girl powerrrr!

Ohh lookie here ...
http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2011/5/23/nation/20110523155334&sec=nation
If you're too lazy to click the link, here, I'll summarize it for ya. The Malaysian government's worried that women are delaying marriage. Seriously, if ya'll are worried perhaps you could find us one.


Or maybe find me one. Cuz when I was a kid I used to brag to my mom that I won't get married and kids are at the bottom of my priority list. And then Kay drops the bombshell on me, "if you don't have kids, who's gonna take care of you when you're old and how can you afford a place at the old folks' home?".

Bloody bloody Kay.

Anyways, I won't be in denial any longer cuz my grandma has pretty much given up hope on my older cousins in terms of settling down - so she's turn to me now. (God, I'm getting old). Instead of asking about jobs and KL life she's been asking about finding a boyfriend pretty much everytime I see her. Even mom has been asking once in a while (shudder!!). Awesomeness. Just waiting for dad to ask now.

Okay so, mom, dad, grandma, government - I got 'em answers.
Guys don't know I exist, at least, the ones I'm showing interest in.

Guys show interest, but that's only what I think.



Guys prefer the hot chicks who socialize with them .. at bars, clubs, anywhere as long it's not the bookstore.

I'm not hot enough for them. 'Nuff said. I could give you more vocabularies but then they'll say I have low self esteem. Blah.
Okay I should stop right here before this happens:


P/S - This post is only intended for humor. Do not take this seriously and throw rocks at me, because I have never, ever did that to a person before.

Waiting

Credit - roxanne-jasmine.deviantart.com

Typical

Credit - Daniela Uhlig @ epilogue.net

Blisters! Argh!

Yesterday night was disco night so I wore my white sandals, which by the way was already hurting my leg 2 mins after leaving my apartment. The disco was a 20min walk so yeah I was expecting blisters to pop out.

So there you go. A blister popped by the strings on the sandals.

2 more popped on the right.

Yet to pop. Omg die lah I still have to walk to Tesco to buy sayur okay ..

In 2 weeks time, almost

By now you should be smart enough to know I'm not looking forward for UK. At all. And I'm anxiously waiting for those 3 months to pass by asap. Not cuz of Euro trip lah, mainly cuz I'm outta college (university whatever ..) and before you can say bye to me I'm off. Leaving all the memories behind, a handful of cool buds and some pretty mean people who somehow despised my guts. Doesn't take a genius to know.

You know who you are.

I'm cursed! Helppp!

Case #1 I memang geram sending computers to the store. It comes home worse than before. Now CPU's 2 USB port making me gila (not laptop yer, Szetoo =)) It was functioning SO WELL the day before!

Case #2 Pendrive went into retirement TOO EARLY. I don't think it ever got wet but yea lah got jatuh before. Not on purpose! And it too was functioning the day before. Stupid me go and save all LJMU docs, articles and plans in it and no backup copy summore! Not to worry, articles can still find online and previous 2 plans can save from Blackboard. Docs can save from email. Thank God I don't delete emails =)

Case #3 Notebook mouse doesn't work on notebook. Ya, this world got such thing apparently. Good thing the store gimme free optical mouse at least I saved some good 10+ bucks.

Case #4 Cellphone kena reformat, they say got potential virus wor. >.<

Sales: Your phone ... should be around 2007 hor?
Me: ... 2007?! You mean reformat have to pay 2007 bucks ah?
Sales: No no, I mean you buy this phone in Dec 2007 right?

I could swore she gave me a heart attack. SWT

So ... I'm so freaked out right now lah I don't dare to touch my FIRST EVER notebook. Sial nyer. I spent a good whole half hour recalling what I had in my pendrive instead of doing Plan 3.

Karma came and bit me HARD in the behind this time. Really hard.

Euthanize me please?

Die I didn't log on e-learning Blackboard for 2 days lah. The strangest thing is I'm not bothered one bit. The saddest thing is that I'm not bothered by it one bit. How lah can score? And then people come up to me and say,

Take masters lah. A lot of (siao) humans also take, should be easy what.

Kill me now lah. Degree belum dapat lagi what you think I am? Robot ah? Visa also satu lagi hal, omigod like so fed up lah with the site I made my mom call up the visa application office to tell her what to do from A to Z lah.

Got visa and passport pics taken on Sunday. Not excited about it cuz you're destined to never look good in those. Going KL later to return my book and collect offer letter from office. Looking forward to not think about UK. Was never really a UK fan, it definitely didn't win me now.

Maybe I should've chosen UTAR instead.

There's nothing left to rack

Iqbal is making these 2 months gloomy. Stupid degree. You'd better gimme a better life starting this September after I grab a whole of you. Feels like I'm living on the LJMU blackboard. That's the first thing I see in the morning, and the thing which worries me throughout the evening, and the last thing in my head before I go to bed.

Next morning same whole schedule.

Ini degree punya pasal lah. That one paper that could grant me a penthouse apartment overlooking KLCC one day, or a worn out mattress on the banks of the Klang River.

$$$

Despite needing at least 20 readers to visit everyday I hantam sajalah and become a Nuffnang member. I seriously dunno who actually stumbles upon this thing you call a blog but you'll never know. If you don't know already, Nuffnang is a blog advertising community where they place ads in your blog. Long story short, making $$$ by blogging. Some bloggers can make up to 3K a month, I'll be lucky to have $10.

It's a Sunday and I've got 2 more dreary journals to read and understand at least something. Despite faithfully attending every lectures and tutorials you bet I can actually make out what the authors are highlighting. No such thing wei. The pornography journal stinks. It's like studying law all over again. It took my lazy ass 3 days to read it all.

One more week and I'm an unofficial college grad. Not sure if I should be delighted or not.

I made it to church this morning (exam around the corner, pandai pandai lah faham) and I thought of joining the adult youth fellowship. I was pretty active when I was a kid so I thought it'd be fun to join in with some church buds. Just a thought.

Power out

Rushing for my 1pm train. Check

Stranded in the LRT. Check

Reason? Power out. Masalah teknikal.

Missed my 1pm train. Check

Die die must buy a ticket - 5.50pm. Check

Cost? 18 bucks. Check

Why? Sorry lah miss, all economy class tickets sold out. I gif you 2nd class can?

Lepaked around KL Sentral pondering what to do lah. Check

OK lah, don't wanna wait so long. Buy 3.15pm ticket. Check

Cost? 22 bucks (refund 9 bucks). Check

So mahal ah? Miss, superior class tickets are the only ones left. Check

*Malaysians so cheapskate lah go and bolot habis economy tickets*

Read 2 pages of Technology Diffusion. I know what Global Village means now. Check

3.15pm. Time to board train. Waited for 20 mins. Check

Then ... blackout ... twice. Check

Announcement - train experiencing technical problems. Check

*slaps forehead. Karma is evil to me today*

Train berlepas - 4.30pm

Tuning into dead mode

I took 11 weeks to complete (and procrastinate) Chaps 1-3 and I've been given exactly 4 days to finish Chaps 4-5. Yea, I thought it'll be good to finish off college life like I started.

Pig on the job. Check.
Last minute works. Check.
Sleepless for 24 hours. Check.
Lepaked on the eve of finals. Check.

The only thing bugging my mind is the Policy & Planning assignment o.O (surprise!) I find thesis to be fun can? The reason why I pig on it is cuz I .. am a pig. Fair enough? Or maybe the first three chapters are a bore? Check.

Will be off downstairs to watch Hairspray (for focus group purposes wei, I don't pig on the job when I have to submit it in 4 days!) later.

Everything is under control, I say
Maybe ...
So what I'm reading now? I ask
.. Holocaust (?)
I got a feeling we're gonna discuss about racial segregation during the focus group later, I answer

Thesis checklist:
Chap 1. Done.
Chap 2. Need to replace the current review with another one =.= I hate journal reading cuz it's (supposed to be) boring and the high class vocab they use is annoying. Consulting the dictionary every 2 mins is not my definition of fun.
Chap 3. Redo content analysis cuz apparently I was too hardworking, I did Chap 4's content analysis instead.
The above chapters need to be handed up tomorrow. Maybe I should start doing now.

Chap 4. Half done. The highlight of that day was pressing Ctrl X and Ctrl V content analysis.

I hate using my brain.
Ciao. I'll see you Monday

Pig

Wah liao I told myself I'd get my Chap 2 done by this weekend and then I go main Facebook and kepoh people's blogs. The deadline for thesis (from what I've summed up) is around Week 11-12, but haven't confirmed with my own lecturer yet. Week 7's coming to an end already.

I memang berani mati.

Chap 2 ONLY you ask? But it's been 7 weeks already!

Yalah, you see me pig around in my dorm sleeping till 11am and then come home terus main game. How can finish? I also getting more berani to not hand up the chapters weekly (with the exception of Chap 1) but I've told myself to not do last min work in Week 11-12. I need my daily dosage of 10 hrs sleep (wah!)

Every night I pray for God to not let me procrastinate. And then the next day same whole story. Type and press backspace for an hour, then make myself promise to play for the next hour. In the end main until 12 midnight.

Geng chao hor?

Why, I never ...

It's kinda strange I've been appreciated more in the virtual world than in reality. Some of you may know I play counselor on Yahoo! Answers and one dude comes up and says this:

Language and typos aside. I don't know about my soul (cuz I'm Jekyll & Hyde) but bringing smiles around and making other people happy ... I don't do that a lot to the real world. Haha. Hey, if you give me a chance I'll make you happy lah.

I memang tak tau nak kerja apa in the future. Perhaps a counselor would do :P

Now, this is the time I really sayang myself. Few hours back I was contemplating suicide .. hehe

Ain't fun

In my dictionary, cyber cafe-ing is a form of relaxation where you lepak on the Net and not do anything productive at all. Hari ini, wuah .. research thesis la, buat Ms. Rasmuna's assignment la, then computer yesterday kena serang virus. I've got 2 culprits but ... what you want me to do lah?

Rasa nak cabut kepala

Hehe, tapi masih nak berblogging.

At this sec, my thesis is going haywire. The problem is both of us have no clue on what to research about. Which is like a total disaster lah cuz frankly if there's no problem means no thesis to write lah. So Lydia and me haf to switch movies lah from Tomb Raider to Mona Lisa Smile (even though I found the latter totally boring)

So balik dorm hari ini and try to pry open my brain. And spread more viruses into my health-stricken desktop. Since they're already swimming around I might as well give them more buddies to swim with lah.

>.<